Wednesday, December 30, 2009

no-one... Knows!!!!!!!


what I'm talking about!!!! --- little drunk.

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

The weight of the world.

No, I did not use a model for this drawing. I was feeling horrible about a decision I made, and doodling. The decision..... was made by my pants. As soon as it was over, I regretted it. I felt like my tally Wacker was weighing me down.

PS. I love the word tally Wacker.

Monday, December 28, 2009

My T-shirt, your butt


A friend of mine stopped by, he tried on my T-shirt and loved it. He also said he should put it on backwards and take his pants off. You don't argue with great ass.

Yoga boy.

A long time ago in a galaxy far away ( Hollywood ) I took this yoga class on Wednesday night for one reason, it wasn't the teacher, I didn't think she was bad, but a yoga teacher with fake boobs???
The reason... a guy (pictured above) he was easy on the eyes (very easy ) and that was only half the package, he had calm beautiful energy, every move, was deliberate and confident... it was kind of like slow motion, but not.
After about five classes,nothing but courteous smiles, I was dying to find a way to talk to him. " Hey, great assisted standing forward bend today." sounded like I was trying. Surrounded by want to be Hollywood starlets, who talked about the new acting classes they were trying. We... gathered our things and tied Our shoes in silence. I started to repack my bag and without thinking about it set my sketchbook right next to him. " Are you an artist?....." he spoke.... "can I take a look?"he asked. "I have always fantasized about posing nude for an artist." He stated. (Holy Shit!!) Did he just say that?
More on this later........

Sunday, December 27, 2009

The most confusing time of year!


Christmas has become a confusing time for me. My grandpa was a minister for the Salvation Army ( not grandpa Maxx, he was a painter to, but he painted things like the Virgin Mary, the Pope's hands, flowers and boats out at sea that would be named after my grandmother.) I know I'm getting way off course here, but the painting of the Pope's hands - I always thought that was Elvis's hands. If you look at the sleeves of what Elvis wore and look at the sleeves of what the Pope wears.... very similar. Not only that, I always assumed that Elvis drank from Gold cups.
Anyway.... Christmas was always a religious time for me. (Praise baby Jesus) however these days, I don't like and I don't trust organized religion. For obvious reasons. You add on top of that frazzled people, running around and buying crap for people they don't even like, just so they can check them off their list. Christmas has become one of the ugliest holidays (in my mind) on the flip side of that, a well decorated Christmas tree is the most beautiful things I've ever seen. I can and I have spent hours staring at them, I'm not kidding. So I think you can see why Christmas is a confusing time for me.
As for the picture I posted, I thought he looked so satisfied and happy and overall that's how I felt about my Christmas vacation.

My bad.......

I meant to put this picture up at Christmas time to wish everyone a lovely Christmas....... so it's two days later :-)

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Merry Christmas everybody!!


I hope everyone gets exactly what they want for Christmas!

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

They're not always good......


I don't know why I am posting this drawing, that's not true I do know why. What I should say is... I'm embarrassed to post this drawing. It is certainly not the worst drawing I have ever done... it just does nothing for me. I could easily ( very easily ) blame the model. When he started this pose he was not aroused. So I could say I was distracted by his... "growing interest" but movement down there happens on every single model I've ever drawn, even the straight ones (the real straight ones) sketching somebody is giving every inch of their body attention, I wonder if I could describe it as.... running my hands all over their body, and describing it to you. They feel what I'm doing, and you see what I felt.... too corny? I don't know... it's early I kind of like it.
Some of the pieces of mine that are currently published, I have hated. In fact I wanted to rip them up so that no one would know I did it. What I thought at that moment was a failure, was revisited and is now on my list of favorites. So who knows what anyone will think of this drawing? Just because all I see is a fat face and a skinny dick with a weird head, doesn't mean someone's not going to love it.
Just not me...;)

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

A little unsure of myself.

I slept horribly last night. Bad dream's, interrupted sleep and a lot of sweat. What the hell is going on? Today I feel unsure of myself.



I don't mind if the model feels unsure of himself, it adds depth that I think everyone can relate to. Most guys pose for the experience, there vanity or the fantasy, it is rare that guys do this for the money (because I don't pay that much ) this guy said he was here for the money. A 19-year-old "straight" boy from Utah. I mean no offense to straight men, but this boy was far too kind and sensitive to be straight. However it was not my mission nor my job to pull him out of the closet. All I wanted to do was... capture his emotion, improve my skill set and see him without pants on.



Our session was interrupted by my roommate who said she was going to be out all day. ( I must've done this drawing 10 years ago, it's been forever since I've had a roommate.) After she came home he got really nervous ( understandably) it's awkward to be sitting around naked and have someone walk in and see you, unexpectedly. I offered to pay him, he refused to take the money saying that "he didn't work the full two hours and we can get together again sometime."



Noteworthy: he picked this pose, for a first pose. This is kind of a balls out (literally) it's as if his body was saying " here I am. I'm young beautiful and sexy." And then his right arm is saying " let's not get crazy, please don't hurt me." And his left-handed fist said that He was terrified.

Monday, December 21, 2009

No time to draw.




I debated for a while as to whether or not to post these pictures. The main reason being... I like the idea of having all drawings of guys ( I know I have other photos of guys up ) but I feel like I was moving in a new direction, and I liked where I was going. On the other side of the argument, I really feel that our lives are full rules and to add extra rules doesn't make any sense.



Obviously.... I decided to publish the photos, and here's why.



First off, this model said I could (his only request was that I not use his real name, because he teaches high school students and he didn't want any of them to accidentally stumble across the pictures.)



Second, the beauty of his body pales in comparison to what's inside of him, (he was describing his Buddhist beliefs, while naked... explaining how he no longer tries to hold onto material things... while naked. If you think about it.. at that moment he was void of all material things.) I should note: he contacted me about drawing him, our schedules would not lineup for a sitting so I suggested we take a few pictures that I can work from. (He lives on the East Coast and was in town for a short visit.) I really could go on and on about this model, and I think it would be impossible to find a bad thing to say about him. But I'm going to move on to.........



The real deciding factor to this post. I often talk about my backyard and my fireplace, I really thought that these pictures capture the magical feeling of being in these locations. Also, it's just about one week to Christmas, and it's sunny, beautiful and naked in my backyard. Normally I'd have a fire going, but it was like 80° out... (jealous???)



I never noticed that my fire extinguisher was so prominently displayed next to my fireplace. "I'm a safety girl" - Julia Roberts "pretty woman"

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Big red.


Like the word waterfall, the title of this posting says it all. BIG RED. This model had the reddest penis I have ever seen! Shockingly red. He reminded me of a monkey, he had a light pink face with freckles, milky white skin covered his slender body and... a big red penis.

Saturday, December 19, 2009

About face.

Every so often I'll attend sketching groups. I'm not a huge fan of them, I think they feel cold and somewhat impersonal. Because every pose has a time limit, soon as the pose starts the room falls silent ( except for the sound of pencils on paper) and after about a minute the model who was once excited to be sitting naked in a room of men, starts to realize the pressure of holding a timed pose. You can actually see the sexual energy leave their bodies as an arm or leg starts to shake with the pressure of holding still.

On this day, the group which is normally gay men had the addition of one female. (Sometimes you don't realize how homoerotic the poses are until you're drawing with a girl). The beeping of the timer let us know that it is time for the models break, he asked if he could take a look at what everyone was drawing. Silently and one by one he went around the room examining everyone's work, when he got to the girl he said "interesting.... you're the only one who drew my face.

Friday, December 18, 2009

It's cleaning lady Day



Cleaning Lady Day, is a magical and wonderful day. It happens twice a month on every other Friday. I don't have a lot of time to blog this morning, because I have to run around the house picking up everything that could be considered inappropriate. I know on more than one occasion I've left my sketchbook out, do you think they flip through my sketchbook when I'm not home? And what must they think of the erect men, the guys bending over or the guys just going at it??


I know they know I'm gay (my house is far too stylish) and.... this is embarrassing.... I have several oversized "realistic" looking dildos. I swear ( I SWEAR ) all of them gifts. I swear! cross my heart. Anyway they are so big I could never use them. However they come in very handy when I need to get the angle right of the piece I'm working on. I swear.


Long story short.... I have left one out before, they wrapped it in a towel and set in the laundry room.


I was mortified.

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Over poser

Sometimes no matter how hard you try you can't get a model into a decent pose. This guy was a bit on the dramatic side (he was over-the-top dramatic) every time he moved into a new position, he kept the same porn face.. that... you know you want it look, with Elvis lips and narrowed eyes. (You know the look)

Even though he had the goofy look on his face, I can't say I was complaining. It was a beautiful Southern California afternoon, and I was in the backyard with a gorgeous naked guy ( who was cheesy) but, butt naked. At some point he announced that he needed to take a leak, I told him he could use the house bathroom or just go in the backyard. He went over by the fig tree to do his business, and for the first time that day he was holding a decent pose (I am not now nor have I ever been into "water sports") but he was standing naturally and his body was relaxed. So I told him to hold that pose...... he immediately put his arm on the tree and widened his stance ( ruining what was natural) honestly who pees like that?

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Because I'm the artist!!!!



I know what he's saying.......

"Not yet, I can do more"

Working for magazines




having a supportive family.... makes this blog difficult. Even though I have advised them not to, I know several members of my family visit my blog regularly. I know, because if I don't post for long periods they will call and ask why.

With that said.....

magazine work, I love magazine work. The artwork above I did for (unzipped) magazine. I received an e-mail asking if I'd be interested in doing the artwork for an article about talking dirty. ( Hells yeah! ) Also in the e-mail (and I love this part) the editor asks for.... two guys going at it..... clearly they are talking.... and one should have a veiny Hot throbbing cock..... for this they pay me.

The black-and-white drawing, is the pencil sketch that I did first. Once that was approved, I asked if they wanted normal coloring or my crazy wild coloring. He replied "absolutely crazy wild coloring" and that's what got published.

Good morning????



it has come to my attention that I should not blog first thing in the morning. Reviewing and posting work from long ago leaves me a little (excited) for the rest of the day, very difficult to focus. I was so excited to pick this morning's picture that I forgot to put the water in the coffeepot!

I'll say more about this model later ;)

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

The best models

In my experience I have found that the best models are often dancers or go-go boys. I hate having to pose models, telling someone how to look natural while naked is next to impossible. When you have guys who are naturally comfortable with ther body, it is easy for them to slip into a natural pose. Back in the day I used to put ads up in gym locker rooms, I would end up with these guys who were so in love with themselves (and they looked pretty good) but their muscles were so tightly restricted it was hard for them to find a natural pose. That and the fact that they can only talk about themselves the work out there doing the muscle milk their drinking. (Boring)



This guy was a dancer in music videos or something like that, he was lying on a blanket on the floor in front of my fireplace. He was telling me that he got into dance because his sisters were in ballet and he felt like he was always at the dance studio, so he decided to join. It was one of those great moments of good conversation, good wine, good music and a great model.

Monday, December 14, 2009

Showing my work....



Whenever I have guys over to draw, I always set my previous artwork out for their review. This way they can see that I am talented and not crazy. Most of the time it's an awkward situation, for both me and the model to determine when they should get naked. They ask questions like.... "so do I get naked now ?" or "how does this work do I start my in underwear?
This guy (in the drawing above) enter the studio and immediately started to undress. He was telling me that he had a little trouble finding the place as he was taking his underwear off! I was actually a little speechless. First off, he was stunningly beautiful and second, he was stunningly beautiful naked! I showed him my pile of work, he started sifting through it and telling me how talented I am, but the only thing I could focus on was the head of his member resting and slightly moving on the table. (It was so hot!) I told him I had to draw him immediately, he was a little confused and asked " like this?" I told him that the light was hitting him perfectly, I wasn't going to tell him that the weight of his junk resting and dancing on my artwork was too hot for words. He continued to look at my artwork and I started to draw, it was a great night of ..... drawing ;)

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Drink anyone.....


my coasters........ one of my best sellers!

Friday, December 11, 2009

My Pillows




not all of the pillows are mine, but I think you can tell..... I do flowers now!!

Thursday, December 10, 2009